I'm bored, let's start some shit.
02.24.06 (8:06 am) [edit]
I'm bored, let's start some shit.
That is something quite a few people do in their life. Most of us move past that once we grow out of our teen years. We realize it's just not condusive to being an adult and leading a responsible life. So when you see others around your age or older doing this it instills even further that a) you are an adult and b) you ought to act like one.
My mother has issues with being an adult and acting like one. She gets bored with her sober and straight life, so then she begins to stir some "shit" up. I love her so very much, but it does not keep me from seeing her from every angle. Which leads to helping her out of the latest mess with minimal damage to my life.
I'm not willing to aid her and then keep her like so many good intentioned people do when helping others. It just won't turn out pretty. I tried and like common sense tells you, it will and does not work. You must walk a fine line in these sorts of situations.
So after talking with a few family members some damage control will be used and hopefully she will get right back to where her life needs to be rather than where her abused and neglected mind wants her to go. I love my mom and I will always help her lead the life that is good for her even if she fights it.
That is something quite a few people do in their life. Most of us move past that once we grow out of our teen years. We realize it's just not condusive to being an adult and leading a responsible life. So when you see others around your age or older doing this it instills even further that a) you are an adult and b) you ought to act like one.
My mother has issues with being an adult and acting like one. She gets bored with her sober and straight life, so then she begins to stir some "shit" up. I love her so very much, but it does not keep me from seeing her from every angle. Which leads to helping her out of the latest mess with minimal damage to my life.
I'm not willing to aid her and then keep her like so many good intentioned people do when helping others. It just won't turn out pretty. I tried and like common sense tells you, it will and does not work. You must walk a fine line in these sorts of situations.
So after talking with a few family members some damage control will be used and hopefully she will get right back to where her life needs to be rather than where her abused and neglected mind wants her to go. I love my mom and I will always help her lead the life that is good for her even if she fights it.
Reliable & Responsible
02.21.06 (9:31 am) [edit]
Reliable & Responsible
Two things that I am and seek in other people. Yet, they let me down time after time. I am in no way talking in "romantic" terms, just people in general.
The past two weeks I have been dealing with people in my personal life that are the opposite of the two things I seek. I am thankful that these people are not related to me nor my friends. They are just a few that I have to bring myself to be in contact due to certain circumstances. I'm resolving all of this today, deleting their phone numbers, emails and not responding to any contact they extend towards me.
I refuse to spend another weekend putting my activities off and using my weekdays/nights working towards a goal no one seriously cares about any longer. Oh well, their loss as this would have saved them a lot of money.
I am done. Good riddance.
Two things that I am and seek in other people. Yet, they let me down time after time. I am in no way talking in "romantic" terms, just people in general.
The past two weeks I have been dealing with people in my personal life that are the opposite of the two things I seek. I am thankful that these people are not related to me nor my friends. They are just a few that I have to bring myself to be in contact due to certain circumstances. I'm resolving all of this today, deleting their phone numbers, emails and not responding to any contact they extend towards me.
I refuse to spend another weekend putting my activities off and using my weekdays/nights working towards a goal no one seriously cares about any longer. Oh well, their loss as this would have saved them a lot of money.
I am done. Good riddance.
Dreams
10.28.04 (6:25 am) [edit]
Only in my dreams
I have been dreaming the most romantic and vivid dreams lately. I can't quit thinking about my dreams throughout the day. I have been very stressed out in my daily life that I almost wish I could live in those dreams for a little longer.
I do have a romantic partner in them who shall remain nameless. It's been a long time since I've been touched like that. I'm literally melting as I type. As of last night I haven't had sex with him, only cuddling and kissing. That sort of stuff. I wish I could do more than just dream about him. I want him. I miss that feeling.
I have been dreaming the most romantic and vivid dreams lately. I can't quit thinking about my dreams throughout the day. I have been very stressed out in my daily life that I almost wish I could live in those dreams for a little longer.
I do have a romantic partner in them who shall remain nameless. It's been a long time since I've been touched like that. I'm literally melting as I type. As of last night I haven't had sex with him, only cuddling and kissing. That sort of stuff. I wish I could do more than just dream about him. I want him. I miss that feeling.